Jesus Loves Me

Jesus loves me, this I know,
for the bible tells me so,
little ones to him belong,
they are week and he is strong,
yes, Jesus loves me,
Yes, Jesus loves me,
Yes, Jesus loves me,
For the Bible tells me so.
Wow! I use to sing that as a little girl in sunday school class and with my mom in the car or anywhere. Now I sing it with my son anywhere. Lately, we have been singing that song alot for our morning bible lessons. (I home school). The funny thing is, well actually there are 2 funny things. One is that I only know a select many bible songs( I know its sad) and the other funny thing is, it is no coincedence the Lord has me focusing on that song. He wants me to know, I mean REALLY know that he loves me. No matter how I look, act or talk. He KNOWS me and He STILL loves me. Lately I have been running from a more intimate relationship with the Lord. I didnt even realize I was running till the day I spent with my son. Now that the realization has hit me that he's pursuing me, He keeps bombarding me with Revelation. This may sound great, and it is, however it is also very scary and hard. Just when I thought I was healed from past wounds and that my relationship with God was good, He shows me something completely new and peels another layer of skin off the onion ( Which, I dont know about you, but I feel onions are better left unpeeled, Less tears), and shows me our relationship can be 20x's better IF... notice the IF, I take this walk with him and allow him to love me. In order for this to happen, that means I need to do a whole lot of knowing him and becoming MORE vulnerable( like I wasnt already). This year I learned that I need to lean more on the Lord and that has strengthened our relationship, now I am learning that in that trust of leaning more on him, I also need to let him love me, and I know he does, however knowing and letting are two different things. Jesus loves me, I am weak and he is strong, and He Still loves me, For the bible tells me so.

Concentrated Love

Today was a wonderful day. It was a day totally for and with my son. I had been putting it off for quite some time. I think there was a fear of the barrier of sexes. How do I play with boys? I can totally play barbies but cars?...Well, today was the day I held to my time for him. First we went to his soccer game which was very awesome. It was so cute, cause he'd always look over to see if I was watching him. The look on his face was priceless. Next we went on an outreach with our church. It was so great to see him knocking on doors and helping with the bags of groceries and clothes. He made the comment, "mom, if I see someone who doesnt know Jesus, I will tell them about him." Talk about warm your heart. He got it, he got the morning and what we were there for. Afterwords, I treated him to mcdonalds and then finished watching a movie with him at home. However, I have to say the greatest part of our day together was the thing I feared the most, playing with him. Actually giving him my undivided attention and playing cars, duck-duck-goose, hide and seek, and racing around the back yard playing tag. It occured to me today, that he needs me NOW, not tommorrow, not later, NOW. I am getting teary eyed right now thinking about his smiling face and all the love he poured out on me today and all the love I poured out on him. We spiritually and emotionally connected and it was great! Kinda like the Lord wants to do with us. I think some of us may have that fear of, what do I talk to him about? He's God and I'm a human. When he doesnt even see us that way, he sees us as family his children and he just wants to have relationship with us. Play with us. I mean like sit and talk and laugh and praise him. I praised my son all day and he LOVED it, he praised me all day and I LOVED it. We laughed and we talked. God wants so badly to have a relationship with us, just like our children want. Its those times that you are sharing when you can feel the concentrated love for one another. And let me tell you....it is pretty amazing.

Daily Dose

Today I woke up to the phone ringing at 7:51 in the morning. THIS is early to me. There was a time when this was late, however now that I am a stay at home mom, well.......you know. I thought who on earth could be calling at this hour:) It turned out to be one of my dear and close friends who recently moved back to Kentucky. She had been trying to reach me for over a week. I was very happy to hear her voice and the phone call was a pleasant surprise and started my day off great. I had a great dose of laughter(which I have been missing). Later, I went to aerobics and had a wonderful workout which also added to my day. This was an awesome dose of energy. After aerobics I then went to payless for cleats for my son. Unfortunately they did not have them and I had to drive 20 min out of the way to get them. When I got to the other store I had a wonderful conversation with the female cashier. Nothing special, just talked about purses and shoes. A great dose of feminity... And finding the cleats for a great price,.. a great dose of faith in God. So if you are wondering where I am going with all this, its that, this morning I started my morning off right by not being irritated or disappointed by the little interruptions in my day. Instead I looked at them as daily doses of blessings. Have you had your daily dose today?